natcon

Finally the natcon started! On that day, I more clear about the expectation and the goal that i going to set. I made the expectation i will be more mature after natcon. Stop being naive and be a person who can make a future planning. First day of the natcon we all facing the same problem. Not understand almost all the short form appear in the slide. It is hard for us to receive everything in a day. The most enjoyable moment in the first day of natcon is the social agenda. I participated on it, i realize that, if there were participants, then a simple game will also be the interesting and joyful game.

Second day of natcon, i had been taught how OGX department works. I also understand the steps needed in order to send a EP to exchange. RM 50 charge for every EP who submit the form. Another RM 400 fee charge for those EP who passed the interview. To pass the interview, EP should score at least half (52.5 marks) from the EP selection score card. I had take the initiative to ask question, only 1 question i asked. But it is good for me from being dumb person again. I had gone through the questions that going to be asked during interview and i had chance to practice being interview with LC OGX from other university. I realize that, when i am take part on something, i wont felt bored. Not like attending the speech or talk, i felt freaky sleepy and bored because i don't have the chance to talk or take part on it. I only listening for the whole process of it. It is not a effective way to train a new IG member like me. During the discussion session in Functional Area Education, i don't felt that i had really learn something from them. I not really know what they all writing also, maybe i not yet gone through the AIESEC experience like the LC. It was a very tough session for an IG member like me to pass through...

Third day of natcon!!! Third day was the day made me had impetuous to quit AIESEC!!! There were 3 sessions of Functional Area Education. Actually 4 sessions, include the sharing moment at night. First of all, IG UMP being ignored during such session. Second, they all keep on discuss the problem or the planning of the coming project of LC. They all never realize the appearance of IG member. Third, i not understand the point for discussion, they all keep on argue none stop. I started to feel annoying, if they want to solve the problem, why don't settle it in voting? Since AIESEC is about the teamwork, why don't you try to get the final decision by voting? Keep on argue also useless, at the end of the discussion, you will get nothing. The problem also cannot be solve after the debate discussion. After the sharing moment with the LC, i felt tired already to listen the debate from them. But, it was not yet stop. During the sharing moment of IG UMP, the debate start again, i really cannot be patience anymore! Really annoying!!! I was so angry during the sharing moment! I still control myself from saying I QUIT AIESEC in front of so many people. After the long waiting of someone say our sharing session finish, i straight went back to my room already. I scare i cannot control my temper anymore if i still there. After i back to my room, Pooi Yee be my listener. I express all my feeling of the third day of natcon to her. I felt that's so meaningless for being AIESECer, AIESEC is annoying, keep on argue none stop there, really make me very angry to being AIESECer, I question myself why i was there, what is the purpose for me to be there? Why i am stupid to join AIESEC? Why don't i reject people? Why? Why?? Why??? I also cannot answer myself. Thank you to Pooi Yee to be my first listener, let me express my feeling. After that, i felt better already...

Fourth day of natcon. Again, i express my feeling to my teammates, Wen Qi and Ivy. I still can't find answer for the all questions coming out from my mind. Wen Qi and Ivy had tried their their best to guide and counseling me. Some of the questions had their answer already, but some still don't have. The impetuous to quit AIESEC still in my mind. But it's not so strong as the day before already. The sharing moment for the fourth day natcon made me cry. I really don't know i had inspire so many people to stay in AIESEC. I don't know my petty actions had inspire my friends at most during this 4 days natcon. I was touched. But i tried my best to control my tear. At the end, tears dropped... I failed to prevent it from leaving my eyes.

Fifth day of natcon. The last day for me in UPM. Lastly, it came already. The last day of natcon for me. The moment i waiting was the Gala Dinner. Yet, it disappointed me.